Break?

So, I haven't posted in a while mainly because I haven't been running.  I chose to keep this blog so I could keep myself accountable and keep a journal of my progress.  I blew any form of accountability I had.  From my guidance counselor-coach at work, to my Facebook friends, my Strava friends, you, and especially myself.  I've lost any motivation, gained all 4 pounds back, and lost my self confidence.  Before I could see myself going outside in the dark for my early-morning run, now I can't imagine it. I can barely even picture myself running on the dreadmill.

I've got to get back on track.   But I need a swift kick in the arse.  As you probably can imagine, I'm really not happy with myself.